The art of Teaching is learning to live

I have been away for awhile and that time was needed, in fact I still think I need time. But I am getting there. I question my way of living and my way of seeing life almost all the time. I give advice to people but for some reason I sometimes forget to listen to myself, why is that?
Recently I was down and out really down and out, I wasn`t depressed but let’s say I wasn’t myself and its going to take time before I become myself again and there is nothing wrong with that. What I find bad about that is that I was not able to function normally. For god sake let me give you an example, I went out with a friend his name is Jason, tall handsome American guy, kind of shy. We went out had a few drinks then went dancing, all was well. Then this guy steps in starts flirting with Jason, now normally I wouldn`t give a shit I would welcome a challenge and show this other guy that Jason was in my company. I couldn’t do it, instead I walk away. Could you believe it I walked away? That was so rude I told Jason that I could not deal with shit like that, now he is angry at me and I don`t blame him.
Truth is I got jealous, possessive and that is not me that is not the way I see life, so I question myself and I ask myself how did I end up here. And today I think I begin to understand. It is something that I knew already; in fact it’s something that I teach people.
Some things a true, some are false and some are just don`t matter, all depends on the person and there perspective or point of vu.
My problem and what I believe is that I lost sight of my truth I faltered. I spend my day teaching people how to let go and enjoy life, that you should take the lemons she throws at you and make lemonade, that you should not be afraid of anything, because if there is one thing that I know is that fear is death. Yes it has its use just like everything in the universe, because nature never gives us things that we can`t use, it’s how we use it that makes the difference.
I can’t believe I was afraid, that I am still afraid of a few things, but let me say this. Look out world because I am coming back, fear is leaving me and I still do what I do be3st I teach, share and love and in doing so I learn to live I have said it time and time again I am more than a human being I am a human becoming.
Come join me, and be more than a human, be super human, be all you can be, fear nothing love everything
This is dedicated to a special friend J you know who you are